Being disappointed

As of late, I've found myself in quite a rut.

No matter what I do, I simply can't find the energy to break free from this cycle of build-up to let-down. I start my day excited to tackle new challenges, but as the day wears on, my mind feels bogged down in small details of things that aren't really important.

A few weeks ago, I felt like I was on fire. I was producing some of the best work I've ever done, even with some pretty substantial negative outside influences. Then suddenly, it was gone. It really felt like someone punched me in the stomach. I landed hard on the ground, unable to find the strength to stand back up.

The worst part about being in this cycle is the disappointment I inevitably feel at the day's end when reflect on my accomplishments, or lack thereof. Weeks ago, task lists were filled with red checkmarks, my mind was sharp and focused, I went to bed excited to tackle new problems the following day. Now, nothing.

Tomorrow I'm going to start meditating again for a few spare minutes and see if that helps.

- Wes